I have this big dream of mine that has been in my life for around 2 years. I want to move to America. Not to just live there temporarily. I want to actually move there. FOR GOOD. I was always super into America. My dream to visit it has been in my life since I was just a little kid. This dream came true in the summer of 2011. I was 18 years old and spent first 2 weeks after arrival crying and being homesick. I was thinking to myself why the heck I was so excited about America, why the heck I came. But throughout that summer I grew to really enjoy America. When it was time for me to leave, I didn't really want to go. I was still excited about seeing my family though. But that changed the second time I visited America. The summer 2013 was a huge change. I totally fell in love with that place. I spent most of my time in Texas and it felt like I was home. I didn't want to leave. I cried myself to sleep during the last week there. All I wanted was to stay. Stay. Stay. Stay.
Since then I visited Texas 2 more times and each time I was extremely sad about leaving. It left me thinking why God just won't finally make it happen for me to move there. Doesn't He see my heart? My desires? My dreams? Why is it that we sometimes long for something really badly but there seems to be no way for it to come true? Why do we have to wait?
God wants our complete trust. That's why.
I'm sorry to break it to you but not in a million years He won't reveal you more than you need to know. Where you are right now, what you know right now, that's the exact amount you need to know. It's where you need to be. Even though you'd love to move closer to your dream, maybe it's not time yet. And maybe you're actually getting closer but because you don't see the whole picture, it feels like you're stuck in one place. And I know being patient totally sucks. Waiting for something to happen sucks. Not knowing sucks. Being stuck sucks. But that's kinda the point. God sharpens our character in times like these. When we are brought to the end of our strength, all we can do is to trust God. Stay faithful. Stay calm. And don't doubt His plan and His timing. And through that our character gets better and we are made more and more like Jesus.
There have been times I prayed for something and God made it happen but in a far better way, a way that I would've never imagined. His plans are SO much better than we even DARE to think of. I can assure you He KNOWS your heart and your desires. He had probably put them in your heart. And He knows when is the best time for them to happen.
So all you need to do is to trust Him. Don't give up on your dreams but trust His plan completely. For:
"I know the plans I have for you," says the lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. In those days when you pray, I will listen."*
*Jeremiah 29:11-12 (NLT)